Show ME How to Live

Yesterday I said how awesome the weekend was.
That was at least a “partial truth”.
Sunday was Father’s Day, which like many of my friends,
have a hard time dealing with this day – for more than one reason.
I have had a hard time with it because me & my Father don’t always agree.
He is very opinionated (I must be drawn to those people).
He hasn’t exactly handled his family well in life , considering
that he hasn’t spoken to his 2 Brothers in a year.
He has always jumped from job-to-job, changing careers like changing clothes.
He blames others for his problems in life, instead of taking the blame upon himself for bad choices.

One thing I have going for me is I KNOW that I am NOTHING like him.

I bring a lot to any relationship I am in – be it friends, girlfriends, family, work associates.
Patient, Giving, Courteous, Thoughtful, Loyal, Sensitive…
these are some of the qualities that my friends I have told me that I have.

Finding myself has never been so hard.
I feel I have a tortured soul – stuck between Love and Hate.
I want so badly to feel “normal” again. It is not easy.
I guess all things we want bad enough, are not easy.


"Working on me. Working on You. What the HELL are we Working for?"