This weekend brings the AIGA Y-Conference to San Diego. Myself and the
rest of the VV creative team will be in attendance. Conferences are
always good – for networking, seeing old friends but mostly to get
creatively rejuvenated. I come back just chomping at the bit to design.
It is being held at USD this year. I stopped by today to drop off some work
and MAN there are some BEAUTIFUL women there. Between the students & the
hot designers that will be in attendance I will have to bring my “A Game”.
The Saturday night closing party is at the Airport Lounge, which I have n
ever been to but I am looking forward to it.
Speaking of women, Kathleen is out. She was way to “intense” for me
but I lately have fallen into a few other women once one has fallen
from the tree. All I have to say is it’s better to find this stuff
out early, not wasting anyone’s time, and allowing her to use her
satanic-voodoo-crap that all women have, on some other guy.
Not me brother. This bus doesn’t stop in crazy town.
Overall, I am not stressing about meeting women (trying to teach that to Spork)
because the more you try, the more you will succeed. I am reading a GREAT book
right now called – THE GAME, by Neil Strauss. It is about becoming more secure
in hitting-on women.
Will I let you know what I learn… HELL NO!!!! Go buy the damn book.
My weekend got better. Friday day was a wash. Dinner and a Movie
with Kathleen was good – ate at Lotus and saw “Faliure to Launch”
(total chick flick). I had a conversation with Shazz about this,
and she said she would rather have her eyes gouged out than sit
through a chick flick.
I find that interesting since I actually like those kind of movies.
Some of my favorite comfort movies are sensitive, caring, chick flicks.
Now I am quite secure in my manhood but I wonder how many people like
those movies and how many see them because of the relationship they are in.
I am feeling much better today. Not as bitter as I was on Friday.
Still angry but I have it under control. Sometimes you just have to
get those emotions out, even onto your Blog site.
Oh yeah, I was supposed to go out trolling on Saturday night
with Chazz, but he must have fallen into a deep cravase because
I haven't heard from him since Thursday. If you see him, throw him a rope...
I decided after my last couple of posts, to cull through my
photo collection and start posting my favorite “finger” shots.
Today’s entry comes from Chuckles, in a picture I like to entitle:
“I got my hair cut by a blind man and all cheese wants is a damn photo”.
WHY, when you are having a good day (week, month, whatever...)
you get THAT e-mail from your EX that ruins it for you… ????
They can’t leave well enough alone. They want to get in the last word.
Or tell you how much they miss you and the “special” little things you did,
the time spent together, why they feel the way they do,
wishing things were different, wanting the best for you,
telling you how much you deserve the best, and hoping to be friends again.
Where is the APOLOGY for screwing around behind your back
and lying about it, treating you like crap, not facing the
real facts about WHY their life isn’t working, the compound lies
upon lies to cover it all up, not appreciating everything you did,
realizing that you let everything slide just to make you both happy,
and never asking “why you did it”.
When they have that moment of clarity and realize "WOW, I fucked that whole relationship up. It is completely my fault".
I am very angry. I want a REAL apology.
I want you to get therapy. I want you to realize how much you hurt me.
To see why I did everything that you claim hurt you more (measure the pain, go ahead).
I want you to stand before your friends & family and explain WHY you screwed me over.
Let me tell you, I have moved on. I am happy again. I have begun the healing process.
“When I've had enough, she drains me when I'm empty, she fills herself, she takes it all
In too deep, she's spilling over me, go on and have it all”
I have been extremely rundown this week. Just trying to squeeze in
as much as I can. Work has been great, challenging and long but the
lack of sleep and my after-hours life has made me long for the days
of going home after work and sitting on my ass, not doing a damn thing.
Sure, I will get back to that point, but as long as the freelance is
there and coming in, I will be taking care of paying off the debt
I incurred over the last year. They always tell you to “NEVER say NO to
freelance because someday it will stop being there”. Plus, I have been
actively pursuing it, so I would have to blame myself for the busy life
I am leading.
Actually, I have just been extremely busy just on errands, tasks,
networking and the social front – between getting my car worked on,
happy hour with colleagues, getting my taxes done, laundry, cleaning
my house, personal shopping with Chazz, I at least found time to have
my date with NEW Kathy (she will now be referred to as Kathleen by
anyone with a scorecard). I will be having the official 2nd Date with
her on Friday (Saint Paddy’s Day).
The whole dating process for me has really been good.
My confidence is great. I haven’t hit any stumbling blocks.
I am still talking to other women, keeping the playing field open
and not committing to anything but myself right now.
I just got done reading a new book that is now my Life’s Creed -
it’s called “It’s not how GOOD you are, it’s how GOOD you want to be”
by Paul Arden. It touches on going out in life and getting what you want,
from a creative person’s standpoint.
One of his quotes is - “Without having a Goal, it’s difficult to Score”.
So True.
No drunken St. Paddy's Day pictures but how about drunk at Lollapalloza with Mare and a cute friend
where the magic happens
I sit here at desk in my new office at lunch time and feel real lucky
for my life some days. My family and their undying support.
The good friends I have and the love they give me. The job I have and
the career that I have chosen to follow.
The path has been hard, rocky & rough in a lot of places but the payoff
seems to be great. From the awesome places I’ve worked for, the experiences
I’ve had, the people I have met (and kept as friends), I feel grateful.
As most of you have read or known personally, the last year SUCKED.
I have finally turned a corner in many things.
The Job – going GREAT!!! I love vvcreative. The work has been fun
and challenging. I hope over the next few months to prove myself as
a great addition to their brilliant creative team. We are busy not
only with work but re-branding the company. I will update on that
as it goes. They have been so great, there has been a press release
sent out to places like HOW magazine, Create Magazine, the San Diego
Business Journal, and the Daily Transcript announcing my job at
Van Vechten Creative.
http://www.createmagazine.com/news.cfm?IssueName=sandiego&NewsID=4677
As far as the “pursuit of happiness” in the personal life,
that has been going good as well.I finally shed the last remains
of “Used Kathy” (thanks chazz for the name). It has been very liberating
not to think that is the only woman for me, the one true love and
one good thing in my life, when obviously – She isn’t. She was a
cancer eating me from the inside. We’ll the radiation treatment and
getting back out there, talking to girls, and getting some digits,
has fixed that. Plus I have a date on Friday night with "New Kathy".
My confidence is at about a 8 or 9 right now. I am riding high on concentrating
on the new job and freelance work, I figured it would all fall into place.
“Well I'm half awake and worlds away, my past mistakes and
the twisted days, I wouldn't have it any other way”
