It's not as easy as it sounds. CHANGE. Most of us fall into our ways and never really change.
Not that you have to change for anyone or anything. You can be the most stubborn,
bull-headed person and decide "Why should I change? I'm perfect the way I am. I like the
way I act / live / whatever. Accept me for my quirks, faults, etc."
Sometimes this is okay. You are not hurting anyone in what you are doing or acting.
It may just be super fucking annoying OR make others around you not want to hang out
with you. Sometimes people just have to say to themselves "Either I have to accept
this person for the way they are, or I have to stop hanging out with them".
Letting go someone because of this reason is one of the hardest things to do in life.
Along with getting over my last relationship, I had decided to "remove" some bad elements
from my life that seemed to be dragging down my life further. They were sucking the
goodness from me and holding me back from growing. I knew that they were not going to
change and I was done letting them make me feel worthless.
The good thing that I am learning from my new path (besides happiness) is how
to change myself and why I needed to. Therapy and self-evaluation is a STRONG
and eye-opening experience. I am making positive changes in my life. I am not
letting others dictate this, nor am I changing for someone else's view of me.
The great thing about these wholesale changes is the clarity I am having. My ability
to see the things I don't like or want in my life. I am getting back to the happy,
fun, open person I know I once was.
I look into the eye of the storm and say "Bring it". I am ready. Prepared for battle.
My life is really good and those still hitched to my wagon are in for a great time.
Looking forward to Football starting up again. Me and Chuckles are going to the game
Saturday night vs da'Bears (and stupid Jay Cutler). I like FREE Tickets (using the owners seats).
The team has changed with LT leaving (a running theme this year?) and with Vincent Jackson /
Marcus McNeill not getting new long-term contracts. On the plus side -
we get new legs with rookie running back Ryan Matthews.
We have consistency and leadership in Philip Rivers and Antonio Gates (signed to a
new long term deal).
I still don't like NORV but one more year and we'll see what he can do. My hope is still bringing in Bill Cower.
Someone that is a proven winner.
Preseason starts in a couple of weeks. The season starts on a Thursday
September 9th - Vikings vs the Saints. The Bolts play the 2nd Monday night game
on the 13th at the Chiefs.
Another great year with HIGH expectations.
This summer has been a weird one. Last one was full of Fun in the Sun.
Lots of Concerts and Activities. This one has been more on the down-low.
I'm sure my attitude has something to do with that but as
I say to myself everyday - it's another chance for fresh start.
I'm taking care of myself - health and mental wise. Therapy has helped tons.
Refocusing on the important things. Getting life in order. I have shed off
a lot of bad energy and people over the last couple of months as well.
Sometime you think you know what is best for you not knowing it is sucking
the marrow from your bones.
Work has been really good. Trying to advance myself through hard work, taking
on more responsibilities and going beyond my job. I guess I will have a better
gauge at review time in January if my "plan" is working.
I got my first Passport (finally). Over the last two years I had talked and
talked about it but finally pulled the trigger. Now to just decide where
and when...
Weather wise it hasn't felt like summer at all. More May-Gray and June-Gloom
days than the Hot Heat that we are used to this time of year.
What will the rest of the Summer hold? I guess I will have to hold my head up,
leave my "self-made" prison to see what is out there and really know what is
next for me.
