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As we close in on our 20th HS Reunion, the nostalga sets in... the fun times,
the broken hearts, the fights, the (from the pictures) drunk times - but all
of them good memories.

[ my pictures ]

[ Bill Barnes pixs too ]

Hillbilly Heights

Pictures from the annual Memorial Day BBQ, that was postponed for 2 weeks.
I am LOVING the country theme too...


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You can't always get what you want

It's true. No matter how hard you try to get to that point
you strive for - the Universe decides it's not n the cards
for you. Don't get me wrong, I feel VERY fortunate for my life.
I have my career that I chose to pursue. I have some of the
greatest, die-hard friends in the world. I still have my core
group but have expanded it so I have a massive group of friends
and acquaintances. Sometimes it's nice to have so many choices
in who to hang out with... but sometimes the true person you want
to hang with is unavailable or whatever.

I have had a RE-self-realization this weekend....
that you CAN NOT change people.

You can't have them be the way you want all the time.
Their personalities and way of living is not going to change
unless they want to change it. Deal with it. The same with my
Passive-Aggressive personality. Not going to change. if they act
a way now, it's likely not to change just because you think you are
"special" enough to make them realize something special in themselves.

Not gonna happen.

Just because you like the way someone makes you feel - they might
not feel the same way (yes, I'm having a woman issue, as you can
probably tell). But this is the same for all people - your friend
is an introvert, your dad is an asshole, your boyfriend always puts
himself first, your boss is a liar, the girl you like is a drunk...
well, you get the idea.

So, I go back to my last post. Putting me and my needs first.
Top priority. Hang with friends that want to be with me (not always
concerned with what they are missing out on). Spend time with a woman
that likes me for me - but for us both to realize what it is - friends?
fwb? something more? Find a job that pays me what I'm worth and
appreciates the job I do.

Happiness - not out of reach... Just tougher to grab and hold onto
some days than others.